I feel trapped.....

This is not the life that i have been dreaming of. I hate being a teacher. I hate my school and coworkers. I hate myself more for chossing this job. Emeral got accepted as a full time lecturer in UNPAR. i can't stop thinking that it could have been me. i want to quit. i really really want to quit ut i will disappoint my parets if i do that. i feel trapped and regretful. i wanna run away but i don't know where. am I gonna be like this for the rest of my life?