It's been a long time.....

How's it going? I've been feeling low these past few days. I don't understand. I was feeling a lot better few weeks ago. now I'm feeling sad again. it's still the same fucking thing again. I miss being in love. I want to be attracted to a guy. i wanna kiss his lips and make out for hours. i want him to touch gently and fuck me with so much love. 

yeah yeah yeah i know being in relationship isn't the answer. but i can't help it. it's so fucking hard to fight this feeling. i wanna be like seneca or other philosophers who live alone but still happy. i need some help.