Help me...

Please help me...

I feel like I'm trapped in a deep dark hole and unable to get out. i'm really struggling. Depression comes back. It's really back and i''m alone again. Do I have to fight alone? I know it's my battle and i'm my own savior but it's so lonely when nobody understands my struggle. I'm tired of pretending that I'm fine. I am not okay. I am hurt. I am insecure about everything. I hate my life and I am sick of this world. 

I don't wanna die but sometimes i think that maybe death is better option than fighting myself all the time. I am tired of fighting alone...this is a very lonely battle. How long do i have to suffer?

I wish i was dead